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God’s voice July 30, 2011

Simply the best. Ushered into His presence, with a focus on Him and a multitude coming to worship, with no other intent. No flashy lights distracting, the only distraction at first was really cute guy filling up the screen but after a while, managed to focus properly lol. Hey, even my sister agrees that he’s hot. She called him hot o.O.

God’s presence was SO real, so present and filled the place. Just wanted to sing unto Him, and didn’t even care if my voice was good or not, didn’t even care to strain so I could hear myself, but just bring Him praise and glorify Him. It’s been so long since I raised both hands.

PDom called those who needed a revelation to the front, said something specific about job area. I was desperate, since the beginning when he talked about revelation I was asking God for one, for some direction. So I went to the front, slightly conscious since I’m the only one who went from my row. But there were so many people going out, it was alright.

At the front, with hand raised high, different from the usual two hands palm up ‘give me’ gesture. Middle of a song, suddenly, God spoke.

“I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE NOT UNWANTED. I LOVE YOU. I WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT. I WILL PAVE A WAY IN THE DESERT.”

I saw a forest, and God cutting through, making a straight path through a tangled, forested area. I do wonder why a forest not a desert. Each word he spoke, I felt power resonating through my body, from the stomach area. It was like a blow in the gut with each phrase. I had my right hand in the air, my left hand folded over my stomach and clenching onto my jacket. I suppose I looked like I was getting hit in the tummy repeatedly, bent over and gasping for breath, sobbing. His presence weighed on me almost physically, it was so thick like a cloak around me. The magnificence of His presence.. just that little bit of what He revealed to me was almost too much to take.

His voice held absoluteness. Firm, unyielding to my doubts, vanishing them all. When He says “I WILL”, there is no other alternative. When He says “I LOVE YOU”, there is no room for consideration. He spoke so clearly, a Father, my Father, declaring His love for me and what He WILL do.

I had asked and expected Him to say something about my work, career. But He had answered “I love you”. It’s like, eh, didn’t answer the question. But I understand now that I will not get answers like I want them. In fact all my life I never had clear directions from God, but only to know that He loves me, and to trust in Him. Trust that He will make my paths straight and pave my road for me.