God’s presence was SO real, so present and filled the place. Just wanted to sing unto Him, and didn’t even care if my voice was good or not, didn’t even care to strain so I could hear myself, but just bring Him praise and glorify Him. It’s been so long since I raised both hands.

PDom called those who needed a revelation to the front, said something specific about job area. I was desperate, since the beginning when he talked about revelation I was asking God for one, for some direction. So I went to the front, slightly conscious since I’m the only one who went from my row. But there were so many people going out, it was alright.

At the front, with hand raised high, different from the usual two hands palm up ‘give me’ gesture. Middle of a song, suddenly, God spoke.

“I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE NOT UNWANTED. I LOVE YOU. I WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT. I WILL PAVE A WAY IN THE DESERT.”

I saw a forest, and God cutting through, making a straight path through a tangled, forested area. I do wonder why a forest not a desert. Each word he spoke, I felt power resonating through my body, from the stomach area. It was like a blow in the gut with each phrase. I had my right hand in the air, my left hand folded over my stomach and clenching onto my jacket. I suppose I looked like I was getting hit in the tummy repeatedly, bent over and gasping for breath, sobbing. His presence weighed on me almost physically, it was so thick like a cloak around me. The magnificence of His presence.. just that little bit of what He revealed to me was almost too much to take.

His voice held absoluteness. Firm, unyielding to my doubts, vanishing them all. When He says “I WILL”, there is no other alternative. When He says “I LOVE YOU”, there is no room for consideration. He spoke so clearly, a Father, my Father, declaring His love for me and what He WILL do.

I had asked and expected Him to say something about my work, career. But He had answered “I love you”. It’s like, eh, didn’t answer the question. But I understand now that I will not get answers like I want them. In fact all my life I never had clear directions from God, but only to know that He loves me, and to trust in Him. Trust that He will make my paths straight and pave my road for me.

Will Xinlin really beat Tianlu with a stick when she is 60? Stay tuned for Season 2048! Season 2011 now showing.

Anyway! Went to sleep at 2 last night, and woke at 6 with a fluttery heart. The feeling brought me back to the day of my A level maths paper (for which I got an E). My mind was racing and I just could not go back to sleep, had no peace of mind. C had said last night it could be I was subconsciously afraid of today, idk. The restlessness had not disappeared. Anw I spent some time with the big man in the sky, slept for another 15 minutes, then got up early and logged on.

Decided to apply my current fave liner, from TFS, to act as a buffer shield of sorts if the braces make me look really ugly. Then realised liner doesn’t look good behind glasses. Ah whatever, no time to redo, and my dentist had smsed me reminding me not to be late. He even scheduled me at 10am instead of the usual 8am (for which I have never been on time). So I cabbed over and spent 40min listening to kpop and trying to calm my heart. Wonder if being that early made up for all the times I was late.

In the dentist chair, I could see my eyes in the mirror and realised I missed out some spots with my left liner. And I was more (thankfully) occupied with how my left liner was asymmetrical with the right and other insignificant stuff along this line. The seperator used to keep my lips up was propped on my gums and it hurt so bad, especially since it was resting on a previously-dentist-caused-ulcer. A few times, mister dentist supported his wrist on the seperator to stick the metal brace onto my teeth and I jumped about a foot off the chair. I was surprised at the height. Didn’t think physics would have allowed it.

Finally got the braces up, and wires in, and he started tightening them. I wanted to bite him, but my teeth weren’t up to the job. The brightest part of the ordeal was when I could CHOOSE COLORS! Was about to get neon pink when an image of a client’s face filled with amusement as she looked at my braces flashed, and I knew I need a more professional color. Pink was your first guess C, you almost got it. But nothing’s stopping me from Christmas colors, though I’m thinking twice about national day colors.

Headed over to NEX to meet the 2 guys, arrived early, got caught by all the sales and started shopping. Got a pair of shoes reasonably cheap, and they were a good fit. It was really an impulse buy – walked past, caught eye, tried size, ok I want it. Less than 3 minutes. But I’m really happy with the purchase. B was later so C and I went to lunch. Hong Kong cafe, and their porridge was good. I liked the texure and fragrance, especially with the massive amount of sesame oil I added.

B arrived and we went for ice cream at Andersen’s.Fondue was disappointing, as fruits were HARD and sour =/ Not fresh one. Ice cream was not bad, fave was rum & raisin, with very strong rum, and it was thick and sweet. Too heavy and cloying for me on the whole, would have enjoyed it more if it were rum & rum. After all the ice cream melted, we did ice cream calligraphy, burnt some marshmallows (we were trying to roast them over a candle flame but got carried away), activated the fire alarm (kidding), burnt more stuff, then paid and left.

Explored the rooftop garden, a really nice breezy place, visited the money changer so many times, went to the arcade, got victoriously violent at the initial D machine, then went to Party World. 2 hours of musical mayhem. It was as much as my braced mouth could take. Went for dinner, then dessert, then I went shopping again, and we parted ways – me to my safe cozy home and them to prepare to set off on the great excursion. I really hope they get some teddy bears. Really a fun fun fun outing.

I’m impressed at our ability to get on each others’ nerves so well.

And your pride covers the real you beneath.

Twitter – dangerous. For myself. Because those one-liner quotes are never enough to encapsulate the depth of my current emotions. Very easy mislead others, or show only one side of my thoughts. Which isn’t a full representation of me. Impressions get skewed. I no likes twit nemore! It’s stoopid! Rawr! I can’t phrase the perfect tweets!

FB – good for sharing photos, cute vids, and keeping in contact with friends. Status updates are a no-no.

Ah I get it. I hate status update thingies online. Including MSN subnicks. No wonder I don’t like twitter because it’s all about status updates o.O” And really.. what’s the use of running commentary of my cognitive cogs when no one really understands? It’s like being stuck in the adolescent phase when kids think the whole world doesn’t understand. But in this case… HELL I GET BLANK STARES WHEN I TALK. And stuff like “o.o ..you’re odd”. I don’t hate it. It’s just.. pointless to put all those out there. Unless it’s all for humor.

Ariel said:
I WILLLL VOTE FOR THE ONE WHO GIVES ME TIN ROOF BROWNIE ICE CREAM ONCE A WEEK!
no wait, i’ll marry the one who does that

The Truth Will Kill You says:
u know what the next qn is already dont u

Ariel says:
…uhh “will you marry me?”

The Truth Will Kill You says:
nope
what the heck is a tin roof brownie?

Ariel says:
it’s a new king’s ice crem flavor
now before you get all ice-cream-leety
king’s is not a good brand
but their tin roof brownie
is enjoyable and cheap
=D

The Truth Will Kill You says:
nonono forget the ice cream
what is a tin roof brownie?

Ariel says:
uhhhh
sun baked on a tin roof?
iono man

The Truth Will Kill You says:
a brownie that was baked … on a hot tin roof?

Ariel says:
it’s delicious

The Truth Will Kill You says:
kinda like the cat?

Ariel says:
yeah
maybe i’m eating the cat
who knows

The Truth Will Kill You says:
o … kay … that was so eww right there

Wave tossed in the ocean. Needing someplace to wash up on. And then to love in security.

Longest FT solo eva.. killed boss with 4s left on the clock, and it somehow reset. Gate spawned so many mobs BUT FLAME BLOW IMBA!